不懂..

在你的眼中我到地是什么?
...你的眼..
...你的眼..当我第一次看到你的时后..
你的眼睛是充满了神密感..可是里面好像又藏一丝丝的温柔...
我真的巴不的融入到你的怀中..
可是我和你跟本不认识啊!那来的拥抱啊???
我不知到,为什么我会有这中感觉..
会不会是这已经是命中注定了呢?
我不知到..我始在不感在想下去 了....
 *  will continue agn..*

.....=)

woke up at 13.00 2day, feel like a pig =="
nvm..
cuz jz back frm b.s.b laz night 8 00:00
bt i slept at 01.00 am. =O!!!
chat with frens~
unbeliveable!!
i stil cn chat with fens after a tired da...

FEELING LIKE SOME VAMPIRIC CREATURE hu doenst need to sleep at all!
some one even gave me a nick name n guesss wat! its "melena cullen"!!
ryt ==" xDD lol.

bt atlast i stil cn't tahan, i slept! ^^

and 2day...i found a pic! which is nice >.

*the end* tired of typing..gonna try some photoshop edits :p

in love

well...
recently, i've in love with a song..
it inspired me so much..
the song..
whenever i listen to it..

it help me to relex so much,
it gives me motivations to do something.
i cn sensed that, whenever i listen to it,
as if it asking me to do not give up
keep on trying. dere's no use of not trying. not trying means only u fail to urself bt not to d others.
so, yeah..it kinda give me stength. i dont know y, bt i jz hav dis kind of feeling.
well, it cn keep me asleep 2 ^___________^


the title of the song is is "you raised me up" bt! its in japanese version.
i noe dat many ppl have heard dis song in eng version.
bt,~ when u try to compare to japanese version, you can sense something different from it. =)

To be honest, i don't actually noe dat dis song is available in japanese version, i found dis song out from an animex. called "Romeo X Juliet" i found it in d opening theme song.
ofcourse,i olmost get d "drooling feelings" when i first heard it.~

so yeah it was nice..^__________^
dere;s nothing more i can say.

Petrified

This is my new written poem..
I wrote this in class
on saturday 01 May 2010
wrote this with the feeling of anger..:p

someone made me mad dat day..
n i hate it..
after writing dis poem, i felt abit relief..
cuz all of my anger had olredi express out into dis poem...

Title of the poem : PETRIFIED..
" You're no longer mine
I do know that
You do not need to broke my heart,
Cause you're not suit enough to broke it
And I'm not longer your pet
who you can't command me to dis & dat anymore".
" From now on, I'll not allow u to fill up my heart wit empty words of yours
I cant bear this hurtful feelings anymore
You're just so dramatic and clever
that no even one person know that you're the one hu actually lying".
" I do not need to tell your SECRETS to anyone,
bt one day! IM SURE ABT T!! "
" You'll fall before me"

And dat tym i'll jz ask u,
" what's d matter? ;)
scared? "

*smirk*

Lost in words

...........Argh!!!
..1st term exams was..so..TT..
I din even expect i would got such a low marks olmost in evry subject..
now ok,
...
i understand that, its me myself..
din study well, last minute baru study, ....
now only feel regrets.
its useless.

now wat i've got to do
is to..study hard again,...
concentrate more
wont let anything,that's putting me down in the end
n im sure
IT WONT EVER HAPPEN AGAIN!

ok..now..i try to restudy hard again,
evrything turn back to normal..
one my my best fren left..
he changed to another sch, which is
kind of far frm my sch n house.

miss him so much
eventhough, he oways try to play little kids game with me sumtym..
bt i enjoyed the tym with him..
*sigh*
hope we will meet each other again in d future..
so ...CHEERR UUUUUUUUPPPPP!!! :D


bt agn...its another relationship problem -.-
urgh..im hating dis..
a guy in another class of mine..
he likes me.
evry1 had told me abt it..
he try to talk to me sumtym..
im ok with it. cuz we r fren ^^

bt ..what i try to do, is only to concentrate on study dis yr..
bt not any other things that will interupt my study..
bt i'll try to challenge within myself dis tym

I'll try not to be that..unresponsible agn, not to act like a foolish coward,i will try to be stronger than evry1...
especially my enemy----> hate to say dis =="

dis yr i'll challenge what comes infornt of me.
no matter what happen!
so yea!
BELIVE IT!!! -----> LIKE WHAT NARUTO OWAYS USED TO IT!!!! :D !!!! XPP XDDDD!!!!!

new bloooooogs!! ^^

for such a long i dun write a new blog olredi,
since dis ...hmm january??
yea i guess,,
cuz i'd been promoted to sec 4..
so yeah having s really hard tym..dis yr~

now i'd got d tym to start blooging agn cuz im having my holiday rite now..
probably d holidy start 2morow..today just finished my exams..
nvr noe dat my d-maths would d b dat hard..
i'd left so many blankx (i'd a reason ofdis...actually i thought i leave it first, i;ll do it l8ter..hu noes our tym limit is only 1 hr! omg...i rushed through evrything blondy ==")
so yeah, maybe i;ll fail in my 1st term exam...
bt i wont get desperate becuz of dis, cuz i will keep on working myself UP!!
HAI!GAMBADE!!(Y)

well our exams started on last mon..to today which was..frm d date of 15.03.2009-18.03.2009 =)
d 2nd when having eng test...i wrote up to over limit agn 525words i wrote up 2...i dont think i'll gain much mark in d eng comp.test..cuz i dont really have ideas...of doin just u noe sudden ideas..
bt anyhow dat dy im happy abit cuz i only have one TEST on dat particular day!yay!! >. on d 3rd day...hmm..i need to study 4 subjects...d most hardest day..=="
exams on combined sci n geography..
haihx.
4 2day :D HHEHEHE....im happy cuz....keep on scrolling down u'll noe d reason eventually ;)
have test on commerce n p.o.a n guess what
today my left hand almost gone broken !! o.o
cuz of what?!
let me tell u.
commerce we did d whole setion a n b..total pages are 12 pages
for p.o.a. i need to do 17 pages..
urgh..what a rushy day :D
bt anyhw when d clock tick 2 11..o'clock
everyone face turn to a SMILEY FACE!!
CUZ WE R GOING TO SPEND OUR HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!

N since its holiday i gonna do my fav.things~hehhe
its MUSIC TYM!!!! YO!!!
i found so many nice music,,,when i always go to youtube...
every single lyrics frm a song, sounds sooo nice n touching to me..
cuz dats what i'd experienced frm my life *sobbing with a smile* :D

Let me note down the title of d songs:
1) Magic - Oneway
2) Let it go- Mohombi
3) why r we still fren - unknown singer
4) 爱丫爱丫-BY2
5) 发呆- BY2
6) LOVE like dis -SS501
7) T.T.L- supernova & Tara
8) Heartbeat-2pm
9) Because im stupid- ss501...

So yeah...dis r d songs..i've updated last 2 mths ago :D 9 (in my utube i mean)
...dere r stil tonnes of dem..bt im lazy to type it out olredi..

So for about mths, i din update my blog...
there's many thing i'd experinced dis yr...
friends problem, relation problem..haihx..
bt now evrything is over! ^^
i'd go back to d normal me agn hehe
d hyper n Happy go lUCKy me agn!! wooootS!!!! >.<~!!!!
weee~
im so happy n free now..cuz...feel like all d problems were all buried in d past..n wait await me is in d future awaiting for me to look for dem...
...... ^-^

basketball...

can any1 tell me play basketball have any side effects?...
no right?...
it can make us grow taller...
man, i dont noe seriously, i dont understand them anymore...
i ask them to send me to sch to play basketball...
they say "har? if u want to go, ask ur friends to sent u, then ask them to send u bck"
i was lyk WTH!! (WAT THE HEAVEN)
Y Dont u pick me up?..its just my sch!!
ok, now i chg my mind,
there's a basketball court near my house,
so i ask my friend to play there together..
now...
they even reject me!
wth?
i feel lyk i own no freedom at all
hey guys, its holiday olredi right??
i noe they want to protect me, cuz im d only gurl there
playing basketball ...
its only a day i play basketball alone (wat i mean is without gurls n wit boy).
bt...i come bck late..(abt 6.45pm)...
i kena marah...
then dun allow mw to go there anymore!
....i was lyk man!! agn?!!
=( i feel lyk to cry now~~........
nothing more...
bt..ppl say dat cry doesnt help u much
bt something it do help me
it help me..to get my anger n sadness out abit...

end!!!!

finally pmb is goin 2 end..
bt..wat worried me ryt nw is dat..
i tink dis yr pmb examination is much more kinda hard compare to the..last..last..year..
i guess d system of hav changed.

2dy v hav r having d commerce exam.
bt..i cnt find d balance out!!!
stupid me!!
n 4 d last 4dys..i wrote an english composition over d limit.

d limit is only abt around 300 words bt..
i wrote up 2 615!! (well my 1st tym).
i cnt eventually create my own storybk.
my god.

....

feel lyk wan 2 say sumthg..
bt..when wan 2 say sumthg..
i dun feel lyk to say it out or even wryt..
haih...d outside of me..is lyk oways act normal one..

bt..d truth is ..d inside..me..
duno how 2 say la.
my heart is lyk feeling sumthg rong..
lyk..feeling sad...bt no..
feeling drepressed bt oso no.

urgh!! i cnt resist dis kind of feelings anymore..
i'm feeling so abnormal ryt nw..

17 dys of holidy end!!

after a long tym of holidy..
finally its end.
gotta go back 2 sch agn.
cn meet my frens agn !! =)

3 mths left for my PMB!!
argh!! so stress..
even my computer project havent finish yt..T_T

hw am i gonna seat for my PMB exam...
dere's only 3 mths left..
mati le..~~
my mind nw is lyk a piece of blank paper..
....

eventhoug nw ..my mind is blank..
i stil wan 2 challenge myself no matter wat.
hmm..
my life is oways challenging.

tired..of evryting

dere r so many ting happen 2dy..
i'm reli tired to k abt it...
bt i jz cnt leave it jz lyk dat..
its important though.

i guess my hlidy 4 dis term..
is kind of special somehw..
many mystery n surprise happen.

evryting is kind of puzzled up..
n our sch holidy is being extend due 2 H1N1 disease..
TT..so boring at hom gt nthg to do..
lucky dere's sum1 hu chat wit me ^^

nw i'm reli tiring of evryting
hoping to quit out of it.
bt had no choice..
need to solve evryting..
haih..dis is life.

我不明白。。。

在你们同一个时间on9。。。
但是。。只on 不到一秒钟又off9了。。
那么冲忙的off9。。那时我还以为你们被dc (disconnect)
after off9 你们却在你们的msn status 那边写了一段字。。
那一段字（我恨xxx）。。竟让就伤到我的心。

那时候我真的不敢相信。。你们竟然会对我写下那句话。
突然间我的心正个好像被捅了一刀。头脑也一时空白。
因为真的不知道也不相信我所看到和他们所写的那一段字。

你们的这一段字真让我想像不到。。我竟然做错了什么。。
使你们这样的恨我？
我也不明白为什么你们不敢在我的面前说而你们却要写在你们的msn呢？
在我的面前说不是更好吗？然后就可以把一切都当面决绝不是更好吗？

我现才发现到原来我不是很了解你们。。一直都没有那么的了解。
对不起。。

Doushite--y?

jz one ting happen in ur life..
wil make ur mind stuck to confusion 4ver...

i reli hate to c ppl cry or oways sad who ever is infront of me.
sumtym when i was talking to sum1..i reli scare n talk evryting in 'care'
jz bcoz i scare jz d only word speak rongly out frm my mouth
wil hurt deir heart 4ever.


Jz bcoz my only WORD!!
n i ever hurt sum1 b4 jz bcoz of my siliness n clumsiness

i noe dat evrytym i ask ppl to calm down n tink in a positive way when dey r angry or wat...
bt when it cums 2 me..
it cant help..
sumtym reli feel dat i'm jz so useless.

y i cn advise sumthg so easy to sum1
bt nt me myself?
Y?? Y?!!

jz bcoz of sumthg i do..n hurt sum1..
i feel sad for dys,weeks n even mths!

my heart is jz lyk broke into pieces..
which i cnt pick it up anymore.
even if i want to pick it..
its too late. i guess.
evryting wil b lyk...dissapear...

Wondering..

If u luv some1..
will u tell dem..?
bt..u dun hav d guts..
coz u feel shy to tell.

bt in d other tinking..
if u dun tell nw
u wont b able to gt d person u love.

bt..u r 2 scare 2 tell..
..i'm wondering hw..2 tell sum1..
if u reli lyk dem..

haih...life reli gt so many tings to worry abt T_T

a vry funny ting happen when msn..

today when i was chatting wit 2 boy
both of dem use a single account
n both of dem oways fighting over d computer
stil gt pillow fight agn

haha
both of dem is so funny n cute when fighting
one of dem even wish dat i cn join in
n play with dem

hehe...childlish ryt?
bt i tink its kinda fun
so i gona join into deir funny fight next tym haha.

my HOLIDAY start frm dis moment...(brunei)

2dy..my day stil counted as half hapi n half ..bad lor.
gd ting is...lucky dat i pass both of my maths..bt total up stil gt 5o++lar.
n teacher stil say all of us gt improve a little ^^
so after sch me n one of my fren plan 2 say hapi holidy to sumone..mah
den..hu noe my 1 of my fren keep on pushing me frm d back..
coz dey want me 2 wish 'sum1' a hapi holiday.

dunno y i blush so much.
bt stil gt say to him lar. its a gd ting

when my mum pick me on d way home i told her dat my maths total 2gether stil gt 50+
i thought she gona she "gd lor..atleast u got improve abit" (coz i fail last term T_T)
Bt hu noes she even insult me agn..say " i let u go tution ..u stil gt dis kind of mark...blah...blah.."
wa liao u think ppl wil gt such a gd result in dis short tym meh??
(bt stil a gd advise for me lar ^^)

so..hav a hapy holiday guys ^^

juz created dis blog profile..
so evryting is in progress...
plz b patience..
while..on d other hand..dere's sumthg rong wit d music thing
so it mayb took days for me to do evryting complete.

aNYway rmb..to giv comments for my blogs
arigato gozaimasu.


haih
*yawning*
vry late le..n lazy 2 type oso
so i juz stop here la
oyasuminasai (gd nite)

water

as d water flows..
it still remain its purest form of its colour.
However, it purest form cannot remain dere 4ever.

it cn only remain for sum moments
bt nt 4ever..
d memories which stay on d surface of d water is being reflected by d sun.

somehow..it means dat evryting dat remain in d memories of d water b4..is being erased by d shadow of d sun.
nthg wil ever bring back d ting which hav ever remain in d memories of d water.

evrything is different frm wat u'd think

dont ting dat..
jz bcoz u'd tell me ur deepest side of ur secret
i'll b scared
bt d fact is nt
coz i'll b supprting u til d end...


dis doesnt mean dat dis is d end of d world
n stop 'sighing' infront of me
dis doesnt make matter bcome bttr..
"juz one truth of u..cn never hide ur trueself"